Good things of the past

So, today I was thinking about how most people only remember the good as time goes on about the past. At every waking moment, we are feeling at our strongest and the most that we can. It is what we do and how we feel that defines us. All the bad feelings that are happening in one moment, will consequently be gone the next. Now, we remember the previous moment, and that it hurt. But say one year from now, we see the happy moments; the moments we laughed at and the ones where we had the most joy. Most people base their decisions on what is happening now, and not then. If each moment is different, than was the bad we were feeling in the moment the right way to affect our decisions? Should it come from the good moments, the moments that we cherish and want to have memories of? Perhaps we should base our decisions, thoughts, and feelings on a series of past events. If you take the good and the bad, but tend to forget the bad, are you more apt to give someone another chance? Did God give us the sense to let some unhappy memories go so that we can forgive, or try to make things right again?
Just some thoughts~

I Promise

Those two words that we all long to hear although we may not think it at times. "I Promise" it seems with a promise everything is gonna be alright. Its the trust of the person saying them. A promise can give security, its a safety net of comfort. What about a broken promise? How do you heal from something like that? where does the trust go? What about the pain and hurt from it? Do some promises hurt more than others? How about when you're a kid and "i promise not to tell who you like", or what about when you're in love and " i promise not to break your heart?" there are many levels of pain we go through from other's words. They can give so much and take it all away again. Somethings can be promised such as " i promise not to tell" others like "i promise not to break your heart" cannot. Its intersting too. When a promise involves another person, you give them the power to break it, but trust that they don't. When you're young and everything seems to come easily with so many things, you make the promises that you know you will keep. I have to be honest, I've made so many promises, 95% i've kept. I've broken a few, but not on my own will. Like i said when a promise involves another person, it can't be 100%. People are forever changing, which includes their words. God will never break a promise to you. Think about it, He is not changing. God keeps His word. So follow in His likeness and don't make promises you can't keep.

With great power comes great responsibility

If I give you power over my heart, will you promise not to break it? I can't be with you now, it kills me to think about it. I wanted a freind and got something so much more. I'm afraid of this love because even though it is the best and greatest feeling ever, you could destroy my world and everything in it. But I'm trusting you not to. I want to love you every moment of everyday for the rest of time. I can't think about anyone else, cause I don't want to. It pains me to think of the people that get to be with you when it is supposed to be me. I seem to be missing out on everything that you say I can have but i can't take it because I'm not there to receive it. I don't know where we'll be tomorrow because you are in the future. I don't have you now. You can't take me in your arms and hold me tight, tell me everything's gonna be alright, because we are far apart. Seperated by this distance it angers me. To know the one person I want most in my life, I don't have. But I have decided that i'm gonna wait for you to come to me. You are the sun in my sky and the love in my life. take it all away and I am left with nothing. And yet no one knows that its you who makes me smile, and it is you that gets me through every painful second of my life. I don't deserve you and I never could work hard enough to get you. I love you, that is what I know and because of that love I can do anything for you go anywhere and become the best I can be. I saw my life without you, cried everyday. I can't live that way. I need you and I'm not gonna make it without you. But if the promises which you have made me don't keep I'll understand. I will always love you and no one else will ever be good enough and no one can be compared to someone as great as you. When I hear the sound of your voice, I come alive. And then you go away everyday and I feel the ground taken from my feet. When you tell me we're gonna be forever, I stop breathing. You take my world, my ground, my love, my heart, my breath and all that I am with you. When I'm scared I think of you and I calm down for all the soothing things you have said to make it better. When I am sad you go out of your way to do everything to make me smile. Its the way you make me laugh, when I don't even want to smile. For love is just a word until you find someone to give it definition. I found you and you are the whole book of love. You told me not to doubt, so now I don't. As I live and breathe, its all for you. No matter how long it takes to be with you I will wait for you. I've got time and I will do everything I can to be with you. You know its true. I can dream about you all night but it will never be good enough until I am with you. Tell me one last time is this real, is it true or am I just dreaming for you?

Its not worth winning

Its just not worth winning if you don't have to fight for it. Have you ever wanted something so bad? Would we still want what we couldn't have, if we had it? But at the same time is it worth having it, if you don't fight for it? I think fighting for what you want just shows how much you really want it. Determination is everything. Without it, the world stops going round. What are you fighting for, or should I say whom are you fighting for? Is there someone in your life that you can't have and you know it? Have you thought to fight for them and see how close you can get? Are you a fighter or do you go with the flow? Sometimes its best to go with the flow, but you never know until you try.

Secrets......

So secrets don't make friends? Well I think secrets keep friends. If you have someones trust would you want them to tell you someone elses personal secrets? I'm here to tell you not to pressure people who don't feel like telling you everything. Would you tell someone your deepest secrets and than have them go tell someone about it and ask them to promise not to tell and than they do it anyway. Be very careful who you trust. And make sure you yourself are a trustworthy person. Put yourself in their place..... think about it. No one deserves to be betrayed. So don't do it. Keep your secrets and the secrets of others. People who pressure you to answer should not and remember you never have to tell anyone ever. Have you ever had someone betray you? Do you not what its like to be backstabbed? Even by someone you loved? Can you imagine? Its too hard to live with, you can't look at anyone in the face. Keep your head down...... Nobody knows whats in your heart. Who do you tell your secrets to? Who do you trust? Now I'm not saying not to trust people because its not good to keep everything bottled up inside. Its so hard to trust people with things that mean so much to you and to have them not care at all. You know deep down inside you would feel so much better if you could tell someone about stuff that goes on in your life that you don't want published all over the world. Have trust........ find trust.............. and most importantly............. keep it.

People want somebody else

Do you ever feel like you are not who you feel like inside because everyone thinks you are somebody else? Do you know who you want to be but everyone seeks you to be who you are not? Are you trying to find yourself? Can you be surrounded by a sea of people and still feel totally alone? Am I the only one the feels this way? My parents want me to live like they wanted to and chase the dreams they had. But I want to live my life and I have my own dreams! I want to be free, run away from the people that hurt me. I want to make my own decisions my own mistakes and live my own life. Why can't I? Well I'm going to, its my life and I want to feel the rain washing over me. I want to help people find themselves; but how can I, if I can't find myself? Who am I? I want to be the girl who cares, helps, protects, and loves people. I don't want to be afraid of people or what they may think about me. I wan to live like everyone should to make the pain go away and let everyone know they are loved. Help someone find themselves, you will feel better and that one person you helped could save thousands of lives. Be the person you want to find. Be the change you want to see. Don't let anyone stop you from living your dream! Its your turn now, you're ready. The time has come when we all need to take a stand for what we believe, what we want, and who we love. Don't let your life pass you by, because you will have to see what you did for the rest of eternity. Live. Laugh. Love. And above all be happy and be yourself because no one else can do what you are called to do.